My teenage years were a lot like this. I assume you're a teenager- I'm not entirely sure what 11th Grade means. Forgive me if any of the following sounds patronising then.
The important thing about meeting people and making friends is to know and be comfortable with who you are, and unfortunately this is rarely something people learn before reaching full adulthood. That's why teenagers have such a rough time emotionally.
Luckily we on the forums know you to be intelligent and creative, and those qualities will help you on your way and will eventually draw people to you. The main problem is that people of your age (man I feel old saying this=-) tend to value shallow things (looks, fashion, wealth) above more profound qualities.
Anyway, my advice would be to diversify your interests a little. I know it sounds like a lame attempt to try to change yourself in order to "fit in", but that's not it at all. There's no harm in trying out some different things. That's what life's all about and you might find something you like.
What you need to do (IMO) then is to take up another activity- one that requires you going out and attending a club or group. Football, chess, martial arts, amateur rocketry, voluntary conservation work... anything that gets you out of the house for a few hours each week. You'll meet people, practise your social skills and maybe find a subject to talk to this girl (and other potential friends) about other than computers/ gaming, which still carry something of a geekish stigma, unfortunately.
You'll also (probably) get a chance to mix with older people a little more, which is a good thing. It's right for you to be looking for friendship among people of your own age, but at the same time I think there are certain social skills you can only really learn from adults.
You might have to try out a number of different activities before you find one that suits you, but that's fine. It's all good experience, and experience is what counts. Eventually you'll find something that you can really get passionate about. Go to local sports and community centres and ask for a list of Groups that use their facilities on a regular basis. Local community websites can be good for this sort of thing as well.
You're doing the right thing talking to us about it as well. Trying to cope with this sort of thing is really not easy, especially if you try to do it on your own.
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Other side is i happen to like a girl. She's now a friend of mine but im afraid to try anything further... because chances are it'll fail (very social, very nice looking girl, much different from me) i'll lose her as a friend (most likely).
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It's interesting that you describe her here as a friend, but earlier you said that you can't make friendships. You may be better at making friends than you think. Also, don't assume that she won't like you just because you're different to her. Who knows what she likes? Take it easy, spend time talking to her (and just as important, listening to her) and get to know one-another more. If there is any potential for romance it will make itself felt soon enough.
EDIT: I hadn't read stone mill's post when I wrote this, so it seems we've come to similar conclusions independently.
[ May 21, 2003, 16:45: Message edited by: dogscoff ]