thanks a lot to you friends, there is some great advice there and just cheering up
it is very interesting, my mood goes way down every evening to the point of complete amotivation but goes back up to normal. then comes evening.
Ah well, its not evening yet.
I have posted here because i know some of you are of averagely my mindset and might have been through the same things i have right now. i see i was right, and im glad. i dont usually share such information but this time i've no regrets.
just a notice, my situation is much worsened by the fact that this is a still new country to me, radically different from anywhere i lived before.
while i got the grip on the language my spoken part still remains low.
I guess i am lucky i got the right mind, i completely stopped all my fit-in attempts back in grade 5. from a source that isnt relevant i read "if you want others to like you you need to like yourself first. accept yourself as you are because its the only one you can be. only then you can change yourself". been amongst my guidelines since then.
thanks again. i've been doing some things right, some not. there is too much good advice to comment on each. thanks.