[Taera]

tbonbop, a small confession here, there were only two people who i'd talk to about my problems, and when they were there i didnt have problems to talk about. those two are left in israel. there is no person right now i'd talk to about my problems, each one having a different reason for me not wanting to.

i have posted it here simple because i have spent a lot of time around the people here, as well as i do believe you to be adult people. (and my belief here was justified)

self esteem... i have problems there im trying to solve now.
what yes, one of my... questions? ... is that i dont want to receive pity. sincere or not, pity is pity... feels and sounds wrong.

regarding this particular post, i saw what i wrote - "dont know if anyone cares". in this context though it was more along the lines of the fact that it is a self-discovery i made that i dont know if anyone is interested in knowing. i still posted it here, to kind-of summarize my previous line of thinking and show you, all of you, that you had helped me at least to understand this.

and i want to respond to the thread of religion. this is a much-debated over topic. i, with my sometimes bitter and critical point of view, and i will disagree with you all. religion is a way to a neverending question of humankind, and soul problems. dont tell me im blaspheming in next sentence. god may exist and may not (my beliefs tend to be towards the former) but the belief had not once given people an answer, a solution or a new life. i speak from a non-worshipper point of view, religion is an incredible invention of humankind that had not once united differnt people, helped persons and Groups and nations to survive or to find an answer.
All you can blame on religion is ultimately the fault of the man. as such you can also say biology is the worst invention of the human race - it is the ultimate killer against which there is no escape whatsoever. a recovering patient would not agree with you.

religion is an answer, not means for anything. some people though take beliefs too far, and it is a common humanly trait. and there are always those willing to use the opportunity. when religion becomes fanatiscism it is not religion. it is fanatiscism. hence the different word. and you cannot confuse or even connect the two.