[tbontob]

Nothing is silly about our feelings. They exist and are very real.

There appear to be barriers. Explore them. "What do I feel about this?" If your stomache tightens or your mind races, ask "What is it about _______that is causing this reaction?" Ask "Is it ________? If your stomache tightens or your mind races you have found something out. Continue asking until you feel you have a handle on the barriers which are preventing you from contacting your friends.

At some point you are going to have to make decision on whether to contact your friends or not. Avoiding the decision is still a decision.

So explore the conditions which will make you most comfortable to call them. Maybe then the first call can be made.