You have my sympathy.
Sincerely.
I wouldn't propose to offer any advice, well, because I don't know you that well and because I don't know the circumstances.
One thing I DO know, though, is that, believe it or not, you have people here that you have met and chatted with that care a lot more than you would think. I've seen this same thing in other forums and it has always amazed me how people you don't "really" know feel your sadness and want to help in the tiny ways that they can.
So, don't retreat away. Come and chat and play and use us as a place to, well, just get away from real life a bit.
