As a LONG-TIME cat lover (and a guy bad at Clinton imitations), "I feel your paiin".
(an attempt at levity...sorry)
Don't know if I've told my story, or how many times, but I had to do the same with my Siamese cat, "Rat". Siamese cats have a tendancy to become a one-person cat and I belonged to him. I was crying so badly when I took him for his "final" visit to the vet that they told me to go around back (because of the people in the waiting room). He looked at me as they put the needle in his paw and his eyes "drifted away". I'll NEVER forget it. And it took me about 5 years before I'd get another cat because I never wanted to go through that again.
My mother always told me that guys who loved cats are special. And, if that's true, it stands to reason a guy would shed a tear (or just out-and-out cry) at the loss of one. I'll predict this, though (based on my own experience), this won't be the Last time you cry over "momma". You'll most likely be surprised some day and remember her and get all "blurry" again.
You have my sympathies
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