[Atrocities]

Thanks guys. I do miss her so very much, but beings how she was really old, and in some discomfort, I hope and pray that she is better off now. I only wish that I had more time to have spent video taping her or taking more pictures. Alas I was cheated out time, but thankful for the time I did get to spend with her. She knew she was loved by me very much, and I will miss that relationship, as I would with any strong life long friendship.

I often think our God is a cruel, evil, and sadistic SOB, and keeping a positive faith is very hard in the light of all of these "acts of God" and man made atrocities.

If there is a heaven or even a hell, and I am aloud in, I will search high and low for her, momma cat, and my sister.

I know that death is something that many of us now have to look forward to more often than not. As we age we begin to lose those around us that have been with us since our births or shortly thereafter.

This outlook is most depressing, but it is what we are faced with. The loss of our parents, grand parents, older siblings, pets, friends, and even our own deaths are now waiting for us to endure.

I have suffored some horrible set backs in my life, as I am sure many of you have also, and all I really want now is happiness and peace of mind about the future. But those dreams will never come true and that is deeply discouraging.

Like I said, sho the important things in your life the affection they deserve, you never know when that Last lovey will be the Last. Now if only I could practive what I preach.