(OT) Some advice for me / My Depression Thread / Thanks forumers

[Taera]

Erax: daily cycle? just as well possible. as for the girl, she isnt dating someone but she has a crush, as it seems, on that guy - some friend of a friend IIRC, from another province. complicates things doesnt it :-/ but yea she broke with her b/f some time ago

Minipol: im too inquisitive and investigative for my own good im trying to put myself into the "act" position tho.
as for amotivation, well, thats the first time in my life im suffering from it. what i mean is complete lack of wish to do anything. no, thats wrong. i _WANT_ to do something but cant get myself to.

Oleg: i dont get along too well with russians as it stands. israeli/russians (i mean, those who are both) have quite a different mentality. i will be though looking into that when a chance arises.

Ruatha: interesting idea, i might start doing it. as i said previously i dont commonly talk about myself too much but maybe. as for matrix i've seen that one, with the same girl what yes, there's the financial problems on my side. i cant burden my parents ATM and im only now starting to look for a job

One thing that stops me from doing some things is that i am not a loner... neither am i a crowd person. i simply cant make myself go somewhere alone, which is a bad thing i know. what i mean tho, i dont like to go outside on my own or go to movies on my own etc.