OT: Despair

[Raging Deadstar]

Originally posted by narf poit chez BOOM:
Well, I guess I'll put it all up.

I've said before that I've got major depression. While that is entirely true, it's not the whole truth. I also suffer from schizophrenia. It explains part of why I'm goofy; as a stress release. The voices I hear are, quite simply, demonic.

But, with the grace of God and the help of my psychiatrist, prescription drugs and a lot of willpower, I rarely hear them any more.

So there is light at the end of the tunnel. It's taken me 4 years to get this far, but I have gotten there. Plus three years where I was, quite simply, crazy, although I mostly didn't show it. Perhaps this is why I never changed Pinky so he's smiling. Because it shows another part of the truth that I rarely show on the forums, these being my rest and relaxation place.

Other people know. Other people care.

You too Narf? I'm for one glad there's someone else with it here, but i'm also sad for you as i know exactly what you are going through and how hellish it can get. Then again schizophrenia isn't as uncommon people think, i think it's 1-100 people.

Good news is I've stopped the medication a few months back and learned to cope, 4 or so years coming up now. I just got a letter from my Psychiatrist the other day saying i don't need to be visiting as often.

Good Luck to you Narf, I wish you all the best.

Renegade

I have a very strong stance when it comes to any sort of prescription drugs for reliance. They are extremely unpredictable (in my expirience). My advice would go to your doctor/GP and tell him/her how you're feeling. I've found medication doesn't help anywhere as near enough as a good Psychiatrist or councellor, i've had 3 so far and the 3rd has really helped, it all depends on just who you click with.

Good luck to you too.

[ May 21, 2004, 18:25: Message edited by: Raging Deadstar ]