OT: Despair

[Raging Deadstar]

Originally posted by Renegade 13:

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Originally posted by Raging Deadstar:
And thanks Tyrel (if it is your name??? you signed your first post with that lol)

Yep, that's my name. And thanks again for the advice.

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It's No problem, Most people find it hard to admit it to friends, never mind ask a community they visit, you've taken a brave step just by posting this here. I hope you find a way to keep yourself feeling good. Just remember that Psychiatrists, Councellors and Medication Are Not the only ways. In the end it's you as a person who will defeat it.

Good Luck for the future.

[ May 22, 2004, 18:23: Message edited by: Raging Deadstar ]

[Aiken]

Depression and despair are common things in our crazy world. Look at me. Am I sociopath? Yes. Reserved introvert? Yes. Paranoid? Yes (of late time, though, due to RL problems). Am I a patient of the psychiatrist? NO. And I'm not going to visit him.
I'm clearly understand that I'm abnormal, sometimes inadequate - I think different than most part of other people around me, a lot of human's fetiches are nothing for me and vice versa. So the question: why should I want to be normal? This world is not normal, it's too close to hell to be normal, and I'm not desire to be another demon in the crowd.
Sure, all this depress me. It's the common human instinct - to be the part of a pride, and resistance is difficult. But suicide is loss. We're affected by crowd opinion - diversity is danger, but throw it away, it's not worth your life.
Maybe I'm wrong, but until it concerns only me I will go my own way, even if would cost me money, success, popularity or other REAL_MAN_OBJECT_OF_LIFE.

[Phoenix-D]

You can be screwed up all you want. I have my own problems, certainly. Just remember when it starts negatively impacting other people its gone too far.

Mostly directed at aiken, with the sociopathic comment. I don't know if you actually -are- but personal events this weekend have lowered my tolerance for that quite a lot.

[Atrocities]

There are many conditions that affect the mind, and even many more minds that affect the condition. Retorical BS but for the love of God its so true.

What I hate most is that the people around me who claim to know me, don't. They have spent their lives trying to figure me out, but in the end, they were attempting to understand an enigma that has no solution therefore they refuse to accept the truth, I am one of millions of people around the world that are simply and catagorically considered weird.

Heres to being us, even if its a painful and lonely life.

[Aiken]

Originally posted by Phoenix-D:
Mostly directed at aiken, with the sociopathic comment. I don't know if you actually -are- but personal events this weekend have lowered my tolerance for that quite a lot.

Phoenix-D, if you think that one day I'll take a petrol saw in my hands to avenge for my loneliness - you're wrong

I don't want to ruin ones lifes while earning tons of money or making my carer. I don't want to break families if I would like to sleep with someones wife. I don't want all these things, considered as life by many people. I speak rarely (well, this forum is an exception ), behave myself polite, until someone infuriate me - then I'll simply stop contacting him/her. I don't want to cause problem to people, but I WANT other people to stop causing problems to me. It's so simple, but unrealistic, to my regret.

[Imperial]

going to any doctor and or a councelor can be tough. I went through 4 psychiatrists before i found one that I liked and was comfortable with. The same with medication--I went through about 6 or 7 different kinds before I found one that worked for me. Its trial and error, but for me it was well worth it. My councelor is perhaps the best treatment i have-- he gives me advice to cope, listens and hears and directs me in what to do. It is however your choice, I gaurantee you will feel better if you got treatment.

[Phoenix-D]

Yeah, I know you probably wouldn't. I'm just on edge like I mentioned.